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February 26

Quote of the Week

“If you want to be secure, you have to give up the need to be secure."

I have spent so much of my life stressing and worrying about being secure. I’ve never felt like I’ve had enough money – or will have enough. In relationships, my insecurity has ruined many promising starts. I’ve laid awake at night worrying about my health wondering the “what if’s?”. It’s no wonder why I drank so much; it was one of the few ways to quiet my mind.

When drinking stopped working for me, I entered recovery. At first, I thought I’d get immediate relief from my worry, but with alcohol gone, I just grew more insecure. I overwhelmed my sponsor with all my “what if’s?”, and he always asked the same thing, “Are you alright right now?” “Yes, but…” I’d begin. “Right now, God has led you into recovery and has taken care of everything for you, right?” I admitted that was true. “Then let Go and let Him take care of you,” you suggested.

I never thought it could be that easy, and I still tend to forget it. Today, while I still may not have all the money I want, I have all I need – and then some. I have love, health, hope, and long term recovery. As soon as I gave up the need to be secure, I realized I already was secure. Today, I realize that my wants are what keep me from appreciating my haves.

And today, I have all the security I need.