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Just for today, I will give thanks. An attitude of gratitude will take me through any day, be it good or not not so good.

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Just for today, I will be honest with myself. I will remember to look in the mirror.

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Just for today, I will be open to help and learning new ways of dealing with the issues in my life. I will not play the victim and the martyr, I will accept that I am deserving of recovery and will reach out and ask for help.

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Just for today I will share with others. I will not isolate my spirit and allow my feelings to fester within me. I am only as sick as my secrets. I will let others know that they are not alone.

Just for today, I will give thanks to my God. I can see Him at work in my life. He has brought people back into my life and put new ones in. My life is enrich by His Love and Care and there are not enough hours in a day to give thanks for all that He does for me.

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Just for today, will live God-Centered instead of Self-Centered. I will try not to stay in the old rebellious self and insist on everything being my way. I will live in today, a turn each day over to my God and ask for His Good Orderly Direction each day. I won't stay stuck in old patterns and behaviours and be open to change and look and at the goodness for the whole, rather than my own self-centered wants and needs.

Just for today, I choose to carry the message of recovery to the alcoholic/addict who still suffers. Some days, that addict is me and I have to be open to listen and learn.

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Just for today, I pray for generosity of spirit. May I always be willing to give, to isolate blocks me from God. Greed is hoarding and wanting all for ourselves and not willing to share with others. It does not have to be money, time is an expensive commodity. What feeds one will feed two. Fear of doing without, not having faith that God will provide.

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Just for today, I will remember this is a program of practice, practice, practice. Each day is a new beginning.

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Just for today, I will reach out and ask for help. I just came to the realization that I may have a broken toe. As I said to my doctor today, "I no longer have to play the martyr or the victim, I can get help, I can ask for what I need. I don't always have to be in pain."

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Just for today, I will let go of all self-centered thoughts and behaviours. This morning I woke up again in a lot of pain. I found some anger and resentment and some oh woe is me, not again. Then this voice crept in and said, "You aren't the only one feeling this way, others are feeling this way." I got out my Sacred Path Cards by Jamie Sams and one of the cards that came up the South Shield (Innocence Inner Child). This card is two fold for me, healing old hurts of my own and issues concerning my son. I know my son has been hurting, just starting back to work, and so stopped and said a prayer for him and asked for his healing and ask for help for him and that he get what he needed in today. I picked up the phone rang his cell, didn't leave a message, but he has call display, and when he calls me back, I am going to offer him my foot bath, it is too heavy for me to lift on my own. What we need for ourselves we offer up to others and pray that we can all share God's Goodness.

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Just for today, I will not only be grateful, I will show it.

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Try not to act out in my disease in today, by hitting out and not take on the feelings that I have to defend myself. I would go on the defensive, right or wrong because I felt I was spiritually led to do what I did, but then I realized my God could fight for Himself, and He didn't need me to stand up for Him.

Always the caretaker of the under dog, and if you hurt a friend, you hurt me too. That was a biggy for me, many battles I fought which were none of my business.

Many battles I fought, which I should have left to my God and not added my 2 cents. When I do my meditation, especially if I am looking for inner knowing, and you get a card, you don't like it, shuffle the deck, ask again and you get cards that say, "You already asked this" or "I get the same card again," or "I get a card that says, "What is your motive and intent." Instead of wording things and wanting things my way, I try to go where I am lead. My cards have affirmed that many times over. Many times I have posted something, and the posted a reading and the thought or idea is an affirmation or a duplicate of what I have already said."

So I try to stay relaxed in today, go and do where I am lead, although there are days when I dig in my heels and I say, "Won't!" I know in the long run, I need to stay within the perimeters of my God's Care.

From 2013

This sounds like accepting versus self justification. I always seemed to feel the need to justify why I did something and just couldn't seem to accept that I had a right to just do and be.

I took things personally and I felt it was a slight against me and I felt like I had to explain myself. I just couldn't let it go and be, I had to get all defensive, get my back up and either mouth off or go off in a snit. Glad I don't have to go there any more, doesn't mean I don't, but don't remember the last time I did. I am grateful for a HP who I can take my defects of character to and ask for help to have them removed.

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Just for today, I will practice patience. My computer is playing games and giving me a hard time.

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Stubborn«»Willing

I can certainly identify. I had a difficult time posting on the site today. I had hoped to go to my Al-Anon meeting, and had many plans for today, but I had to be willing to let go and do what I needed to do for my health. I wanted to be stubborn and not come home and just fight the pain and ignore it, but it wouldn't go away.

I didn't have the right inhaler with me. I had to take a time out and sit on a bench and do a little prayer and meditation. I was going to go to the hairdressers, but tomorrow is another day.

My sister called me yesterday and I called her back but couldn't talked to her. Along with that stubborn willingness, I need acceptance. I forgot it was her birthday until I was talking to her. I am glad that I listened to the voice that told me to return her call instead of being stubborn and letting her call again because she never left a message. Not sure if that would be stubborn or just being in a snit, no matter what you call it, not a very nice place to be, feeling bad or not.

I turned my day over and asked for help. Again, praying for the willingness to be willing. Willing to be other than to where I was at, which was not a very good place. I got stressed just taking my blood pressure. I went back down after dinner to take it again and stressed myself more. When I came home, I recognized the fear and had to turn it over, and the pain lessened and I was able to finish posting. I will to will God`s Will for me in today.