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10-16-2013 09:38 AM |
From the Book
If You Want What We Have:
Sponsorship Meditations
By Joan Larkin
©1998 Joan Larkin
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This disease is like an elevator going down;
you can get off at any floor.
WOMAN IN RECOVERY
Newcomer
What does it mean to say, “I’ve hit bottom”? People seem to mean different things by it. I’ve heard some who have been homeless, others who have lived luxuriously. And a whole lot of people seem to have had pretty ordinary lives with typical human problems.
Sponsor
I’ve heard it said that if you stay in recovery, your story gets worse as time goes on. For me, that means that as I cleared up and listened to recovering people tell about their lives, I gradually remembered more about my own; places I’d forgotten my addiction had brought me to. Actual places, yes—but even more important, places in my soul. Feelings of uselessness and despair, feelings that somehow, somewhere, I’d lost the dreams I’d once had for my life. Whether you and I consumed the same quantity of what we’re addicted to, whether we had trust funds or were living on the street, spiritually we arrived at the same place. Instead of comparing my story with yours, I think about what, exactly, brought me here. No one gets here by mistake.
Today, I remember what got me here I know that I’m in the right place.
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